Omega Complex Novel (Completed) - Chapter 42

Expectation

I was quite sexually insensitive. Perhaps because my development was late, I hadn’t even masturbated in school, which was common, and naturally, my experience watching adult videos was rare. Since I never imagined a relationship with anyone, feeling sexual desire was also strange. For me, desire was merely something vaguely thought about.

As far as I knew, Choi Taegyeom was similar to me. Unlike other kids his age, Choi Taegyeom showed no interest in such things whatsoever. If someone suggested watching an adult video, he would casually glance at my face, and if I showed no interest, he would lose interest himself.

I was ignorant, and Choi Taegyeom was indifferent. That was precisely the difference.

Then, one day, something happened. It was the day Choi Taegyeom’s parents were on a business trip, and I stayed overnight at his house. Perhaps the problem was leaving the TV on late, which we usually didn’t watch; by chance, a channel we switched to was broadcasting a rather explicit movie.

‘……’

Moans from the booming audio and a screen filled with flesh tones. The two people on screen were almost one body. The indiscriminately intertwined legs and the flow of their squelching actions felt excessively suggestive for TV.

Watching that stimulating scene, I unconsciously paused, and I think I fixed the channel. It wasn’t so much embarrassment as it was an instinctive reaction. Out of surprise, or perhaps subtly curious about Choi Taegyeom’s reaction. Whatever the reason, it was certain that I reflexively checked on Choi Taegyeom.

‘……What is it.’

Choi Taegyeom reacted more intensely than expected. In the blink of an eye, he got up and snatched the remote control from my hand. Then, without hesitation, he changed the channel.

‘Why are they showing this kind of trash?’

His expression, his voice, everything was filled with displeasure. Perhaps he was upset, as his words significantly decreased. To think that what I considered ‘indifference’ was actually ‘displeasure.’ I remember silently shutting my mouth with an inexplicable sense of guilt.

After that, we watched a third-rate comedy movie that wasn’t funny at all. I fell asleep while watching, and when I opened my eyes, I was on Choi Taegyeom’s bed. It seemed Choi Taegyeom had moved me to the bed and slept on the sofa.

Until now, I had thought it was a kind of trauma he had. I judged that he had experienced something bad before he could even develop curiosity, instinctively reducing his sexual desire. So I didn’t ask further, nor did I bring up any related topics with him.

But then, I had a relationship with him. Intoxicated by a pleasure I’d never felt before, I clung to him, and clung again. In the end, I couldn’t even properly ejaculate, only feeling climax without release, so it was hard to even gauge how long it had been.

It was a very satisfying act for me, but was it for Choi Taegyeom as well?

“……”

When I opened my eyes with a slight sense of unease, Choi Taegyeom had already vanished without a trace. Even if he wasn’t gently lying next to me, I at least expected him to be in the same room. The absence of the warmth that should have been there brought a rush of bewilderment, more than any other emotion.

Could it be, did I dream?

It was absurd, but that thought crossed my mind. Could all these memories be a dream created by my imagination? Did my heat cycle come on so intensely that I unconsciously had such a dream? And was that why Choi Taegyeom seemed unusually excited?

“Ugh……”

But the moment I tried to get up, such thoughts shattered. An indescribable pain struck my lower back. Even if I had been severely beaten all night, it wouldn’t have been this bad. From the inner thighs to the spine, there wasn’t a single place that wasn’t sore.

I knew the cause of the muscle pain. It must have been the acts I did with Choi Taegyeom last night. My rounded back, my tensed thighs. The frequent pleasure made me keep tensing, and the aftermath was hitting me like this.

Indeed, hadn’t I received that large object in positions I usually didn’t do? I even maintained uncomfortable positions for hours because I liked his deep penetration. It was no wonder it hurt so much that it was hard to get out of bed.

“My phone is……”

I fumbled around the edge of the bed, frowning. The conclusion that it wasn’t a dream had been reached, so where had Choi Taegyeom gone? If he had to leave in a hurry, he would have at least left a message.

Fortunately, my phone, the only means of contact, was neatly placed beside the pillow. The time wasn’t as late as I thought, and if I didn’t dawdle, I’d arrive just in time for the afternoon exam. I calculated the time in my head and searched for ‘Choi Taegyeom’ on my phone.

Park Sungjae, Minjeong, and Kim Dohyun. A few spam messages and classmates whose names I only knew. From ‘Are you okay?’ to ‘Is it true you’re an Omega?’ Among countless contacts, only the name ‘Choi Taegyeom’ was missing.

“……”

I felt a déjà vu. Just like that day, after he had left. A subtle feeling filled me.

What reason could there be to leave first after spending hours intimately intertwined? Even if there was an unavoidable circumstance, why didn’t he leave even a simple message?

‘An Omega, he said……’

My heart began to beat irregularly. An ominous premonition coiled around me from my toes. Could it be that, after everything was over, he disliked the fact that I was an Omega? Did he suddenly regret our relationship?

Lost in thought for a long time, I suddenly felt various oddities. For instance, the blanket in my hand felt new, or I was wearing clothes when I hadn’t put any on. Also, my body, which should have been messy with sweat and bodily fluids, felt dry and clean, and the surroundings were tidy.

“……Hmm.”

No matter how much I thought about it, Choi Taegyeom was the only one who would act like a good fairy. While I was asleep, he must have changed the blankets, washed my body, and changed my clothes. He must have been exhausted too, but he took care of me meticulously until the very end.

Should I call him? I picked up my phone with that thought, then hesitated for a long time. Once I turned on the phone, I couldn’t decide what to say. ‘I just woke up’ felt meaningless, and ‘Why did you leave first?’ sounded strange. I didn’t have the courage to ask if he regretted it, and I couldn’t do something crazy like talking about how last night was.

I have an exam in the morning, so I’ll leave first.

I found the note on the kitchen counter about 10 minutes later. As soon as I managed to get out of bed, an unfamiliar plastic bag caught my eye. In the kitchen, where I hobbled to, there was a short note along with a store-bought lunchbox.

I ordered a lunchbox, so I ate breakfast and went to school.

My anxious heart melted away instantly. Next to the traces of something written and erased repeatedly, a short apology, ‘Sorry,’ was also written. I put down the note with handwriting as beautiful as his face and covered my eyes with one hand.

“Sorry, he says……”

What on earth was I thinking about such a guy? Last night, and this morning, I was the one who arbitrarily held onto him, and I was the one who arbitrarily passed out, but Choi Taegyeom was the only one apologizing.

‘……I like you.’

As my heart was relieved, Choi Taegyeom’s confession came to mind. It was a remark so full of emotion that I wondered why I hadn’t realized it until now. The scale of it was completely different from what he showed that day, the day I told him I was an Omega.

‘I like you, Lee Yoonwoo.’

I had never once thought my feelings would reach him. During five years of unrequited love for Choi Taegyeom, I couldn’t even convey my thoughts, let alone my feelings. The possibility of him liking me was almost zero, and these feelings would only be a burden to him.

So the moment I received his confession felt like a dream. In fact, it was right after I reached climax, intoxicated by pheromones and sexual desire, so it was no wonder my memory was hazy. No, maybe it was because I was sobbing.

……He likes me.

The moment I realized it, my face flushed. It felt like heat was filling my stomach, a different sensation from the heat cycle. The belated realization brought an intense embarrassment that made my legs weak.

Then, suddenly, something I shouldn’t forget also came to mind. The fact that I had grabbed and pulled his T-shirt as if tearing it during our passionate encounter.

It wasn’t just the T-shirt. As far as I remembered, Choi Taegyeom moved his body without even properly taking off his pants. He had only barely unbuckled them and pulled out his penis to thrust, so his pants wouldn’t be in a normal state either. It made sense that he went back without even greeting me, needing to change clothes to go to the exam.

“Ha……”

The corners of my mouth kept twitching. My fingertips tingled, and my cheekbones rose. Every time Choi Taegyeom’s confession came to mind, and every time I thought of what we had done last night, my mouth tasted sweet, as if I had eaten a spoonful of sugar.

It was inevitable. It had been five years. No more, no less, exactly five years. I realized I liked him, then I presented, and as soon as I presented, I decided to give up. I never even dreamed that feelings I hadn’t tried to convey would be reciprocated in such a way.

“What am I going to do, really……”

Really, what am I going to do? I like him so much.

The fact I had realized kept me excited throughout my preparations for school. Although I gasped once heading to the bathroom (the muscle pain was too severe) and again seeing the kiss marks on my neck, that’s how it was. A continuous wave of excitement, enough to make my chest tickle, kept washing over me.

Although Choi Taegyeom had left first, our feelings had connected. Not just our feelings, but our bodies too. Since I would see him at school anyway, I planned to have a slow conversation after the afternoon exam. Now that we had confirmed mutual feelings, there would be so much to talk about.

I couldn’t bring myself to contact him. A call would be a disturbance, and a message couldn’t convey this excited feeling. I thought it wouldn’t be bad to endure a little longer to end this long unrequited love.

I would meet Choi Taegyeom at school. The fact that had been a double-edged sword was now purely a joyful thing. My chest swelled with anticipation of meeting him.

When I arrived at the classroom, there was still plenty of time before the exam. I had rushed my preparations, planning to cram a bit. Naturally, no one was in the classroom, and I took a seat in the back and pulled out my notes.

The problem was that as soon as I opened my notebook, I found ‘Choi Taegyeom’ scribbled instead of the class content.

‘……I missed all the classes.’

I remembered. It was just a few weeks ago, the day after I reunited with Choi Taegyeom. The day I was lost in thought by myself and missed all the class content. The day I came to school feeling excited, only to sink into depression.

It was the same classroom, the same notebook, but my feelings were worlds apart. Back then, I was depressed, but now, my heart kept fluttering. So much so that I couldn’t control the pounding feeling and let out silly laughs several times.

“Ha……”

I put down the pen I was holding and covered my face with both hands. No one was watching, but I felt unnecessarily embarrassed. Choi Taegyeom’s face came to mind, and if I relaxed even a little, the dizzying sensations from last night would revive. The sweet taste that welled up gradually dulled my sense of reality.

Someone entered the classroom a little while later. I was lost in thought, propping my chin, not even looking at my open notebook, when a familiar face plopped down next to me.

“You’re early.”

Kim Dohyun put down his bag with an expressionless face, not even looking at me. The way he briskly took out the books for today’s exam was different from his usual friendly demeanor. A cold wind seemed to blow, and if others saw him, it wouldn’t be strange to think he was a stranger.

“Oh…… you’re early too.”

Now that I thought about it, the subject for this exam was one I was taking with Kim Dohyun. The exam time had changed to the afternoon, but the lecture was in the morning, so I remembered having lunch together. Naturally, the pheromones two Alphas emitted and the awkward memory at the restaurant also came to mind.

“I can’t concentrate at home, so I came here to study.”

Kim Dohyun answered indifferently and glanced at me. His dry gaze moved from my face downwards.

“Aren’t you hot? Wearing a turtleneck in this weather.”

I instinctively touched my neck. The turtleneck sweater I was wearing was something I had chosen without much choice from my closet this morning. My neck, which had turned red and swollen, was too conspicuous to expose.

“I get cold easily.”

“But you wore something thin yesterday.”

I didn’t have much to say, so I just kept quiet. I couldn’t answer, ‘It’s because I have a kiss mark on my neck.’ Saying I get cold easily wasn’t a lie either.

Kim Dohyun sighed deeply, then irritably ran his hand through his hair. His frowning face clearly showed his displeasure.

“……It’s obvious, senior.”