Lick Me Up If You Can Novel (Completed) - Chapter 90

“H-huh?”

In the sudden situation, Koi unconsciously stammered. Ashley frowned. Only then did Koi realize that he had called Ashley’s name first.

Why did I call him?

He had completely forgotten. As he blinked in confusion, Ashley tilted his head, wearing only his pants. Only then did Ashley’s face come into Koi’s view. His face, clearly exhausted, was pale, and there were dark circles under his eyes.

Ah.

Only then did Koi recall why he had called him.

“Um… you look unwell…”

He hesitated, then added with difficulty,

“Is it… because of me…?”

Once spoken aloud, it became a certainty for Koi. Ashley’s pale complexion and unwell appearance were all his fault. Because he had rejected Ashley.

What if Ash starts to dislike me?

He should have done what Ashley wanted. Regret suddenly washed over him. What was the big deal, it wouldn’t wear out. I just had to endure it for a moment, how disappointed Ash must be. After all that talk about liking him, I refused him when Ash needed me. What’s so great about just touching a little?

I should have said everything was okay.

He regretted and blamed himself repeatedly, but it was too late to turn back now. The mood was already broken, and all that was left was to go home. Why am I so stupid? His nose suddenly tingled, and he quickly sniffled, trying to compose himself, when Ashley suddenly approached him with long, quick strides.

“Koi, are you crying again?”

“N-no.”

He hastily shook his head, but Ashley didn’t believe him and grabbed Koi’s cheeks with both hands, lifting his face. Koi, who instinctively looked up as instructed, was scrutinized by Ashley with a serious expression.

“Koi, you’re not regretting anything or thinking strange things, are you?”

“Huh?”

Koi unconsciously asked back at the sudden question. Ashley continued seriously,

“Are you doing this because of what happened earlier? Tell me honestly, we’re dating, so we shouldn’t hide or lie to each other.”

‘Dating.’

At that word, Koi’s anxiety disappeared, replaced by trust. Ash is right. Koi took a deep breath, then nodded slightly.

“I thought you were angry, because of me.”

“I’m not angry, not at all. Why did you think that?”

Ashley answered so readily that there was no room for doubt. Koi felt relieved, but then, conversely, he felt guilty again. Ash isn’t an animal like that, why did I misunderstand so terribly?

Sorry, he apologized, then added,

“Your expression wasn’t good and you looked tired… Um, I know how painful it is to stop in that state, so…”

As he spoke, he automatically became gloomy, realizing he had been cruel to him again.

“If only I had a little courage, I would have been fine. I’m sorry.”

“Koi.”

Ashley called his name softly. Hesitating, Koi lifted his head and saw Ashley looking down at him with a serious face.

“Don’t say things like that. Even if the mood was right and I wanted it, if you don’t want it, we don’t do it.”

As Koi couldn’t reply to the unexpected words, Ashley continued first.

“If you didn’t want it then, but you did it reluctantly because of me, swept away by the atmosphere, that would make me a rapist. You don’t want me to be a rapist, do you?”

“N-no, absolutely not!”

“Good.”

At his strong denial, Ashley nodded.

“Then it’s fine. Don’t regret it, just be honest with your feelings at that moment. If you do something you don’t want to do, just to match my mood, I’ll get hurt too.”

His words resonated strongly with Koi’s heart. Koi slowly nodded.

“…Okay.”

The next sound that came out was much lighter.

“I’ll do that.”

Hearing Koi’s reply, Ashley smiled as if satisfied, then lightly kissed his lips before lifting his head.

“You don’t dislike this, do you?”

“No, I like it.”

Koi’s face turned bright red as he unconsciously blurted it out. Ashley laughed aloud, then kissed him again and returned to his locker.

He wasn’t upset.

Phew, relieved, Koi watched him take out his shirt and put it on, then belatedly remembered something. His mood is one thing, but his body…?

He had seemed to walk a bit uncomfortably earlier. Koi again worried and opened his mouth.

“Um, Ash.”

Ashley poked his head out of his shirt and looked at him. Koi carefully asked again,

“Are you okay, body-wise? I mean, um.”

He added an explanation to avoid any misunderstandings in the current situation.

“You showered for too long, what if you catch a cold?”

He spoke with genuine concern, but Ashley didn’t react immediately. He seemed to be choosing his words, then replied,

“…I won’t catch a cold now. Probably.”

Koi tilted his head, not understanding what he meant. But Ashley didn’t explain further and picked up his bag. In fact, there was only one reason. But explaining it would take too long.

Because Ashley had awakened as an Extreme Alpha.

The reason Extreme Alphas were considered superior to other types was their exceptional immunity. The reason their immunity soared to several times the average level was due to their pheromones; unlike regular Alphas, their pheromones had a different scent and the amount produced internally was several times greater.

Due to the influence of these pheromones, which were vastly superior in both quantity and quality, Extreme Alphas were generally resistant to illnesses, including colds, and were particularly strong against alcohol and drugs. They rarely got drunk or addicted to drugs. If they lived out their natural lifespan without major issues, their average lifespan was also longer than that of ordinary people. Beyond that, the physical and mental effects were endless. Awakening as an Extreme Alpha was, in a sense, a blessing from God.

These pheromones made Extreme Alphas special, but they also demanded a price. The change in eye color to purple was a minor incident. The biggest problem was that pheromones were fatal to the brain. Pheromones, secreted in enormous quantities constantly, turned into a toxin if accumulated. In academia, it was simply described as ‘the brain melting,’ but in reality, the visible phenomena were varied. Commonly, memory impairment occurred, and in severe cases, it could lead to madness or dementia. To prevent this, they had to periodically release pheromones.

Someday, that day would come for Ashley too. For many years to come, he would have to live his life constantly battling the pheromones that gnawed at him from within. Desperately ignoring the black mass that coiled within him, ready to consume him at any moment.

“Let’s go, now.”

Ashley, who spoke first, picked up Koi’s bag from the bench and casually slung it over his shoulder.

“Oh.”

Koi belatedly came to his senses and hastily followed beside him.

“Um, I’ll carry my bag.”

Koi felt incredibly sorry seeing him carrying both his own bag and Koi’s bag on each shoulder.

“You’re tired, very much so.”

Koi said again, checking Ashley’s complexion. He looked a bit better than before, but recalling his face when he first came out of the shower room, worry again took precedence. Moreover, Ashley had been in there for too long. Thinking of how often he caught colds, he couldn’t just let it go. But Ashley’s answer remained unchanged.

“I’m fine, Koi. Really.”

He was sincere. The reason for his poor condition was something else.

Damn it, my lower body hurts.

He frowned. This was the first time he had masturbated so intensely and for so long. He didn’t even masturbate often in the first place. He didn’t need to, and even when he occasionally relieved himself with his hand when circumstances didn’t allow, it was only once or twice at most. He had never imagined rubbing himself until his skin peeled off.

However, this time it was an indispensable act. Koi’s cheerleading uniform—there was no other material as arousing as that, except for Koi himself wearing it. He had taken deep breaths of Koi’s scent lingering on the cheerleading uniform while doing it, and eventually, he had even rubbed himself against the uniform to climax.

Koi seemed to have no thought about the whereabouts of the uniform, but Ashley was different. Thinking of his uniform inside his bag, slung over one shoulder, his lower body felt hot again. If he hadn’t soothed it for an hour, his anaconda would be erect again now.

Is this intense desire due to pheromones?

Don’t be ridiculous, you wanted to lock Koi up and do all sorts of things to him even before you awakened.

Right, after imagining all sorts of dirty things, what’s with blaming pheromones?

For once, his inner self spoke with one voice. Ashley reluctantly admitted that it was his true nature.