Lick Me Up If You Can Novel (Completed) - Chapter 215

He continued to Koi, who had frozen in place.

“Koi is rejecting me, but that can’t be true. Because Koi loves me. Right? I’m the only one you love, aren’t I?”

Ashley smiled. Koi’s eyes felt a stinging sensation at the boy’s face, smiling as innocently and purely as he had back then.

“That’s not it.”

Koi managed to say, barely holding back the tears that threatened to fall.

“I didn’t do that to reject you. You know my feelings, don’t you? You’ve only ever had me your whole life. I’ve only ever liked you.”

A tear, which had been welling, finally fell. Koi blinked rapidly, trying to focus, and continued.

“The reason my pheromone scent wasn’t there was simply because I was inexperienced. I couldn’t control it. Isn’t that natural? I can’t smell.”

Koi rubbed his eyes with his arm to wipe away the tears and added, lamenting.

“So how could I deliberately control my pheromones? I only wished that you wouldn’t hate me. Because you… have attacks when you smell Omega pheromones.”

Koi confessed, taking Ashley’s hand and pressing it to his lips.

“You’re the only one I like. I’ve liked only you my whole life.”

I know, Ashley smiled again.

“Father and Bernice were all wrong. Look, you came like this. Koi would never abandon me. Because Koi only has me. Right?”

Just like I have you.

“Ash.”

Koi called his name, suppressing a sob. But there was nothing more he could say. What words, how should he say them? How could he embrace Ashley’s deep wounds? How could he.

How could he do it?

Koi couldn’t hold back and hugged Ashley tightly. How could he emit pheromones? He should have asked Angel that, why was he so foolish to only ask how to hide them?

“You cast a self-suggestion.”

Angel’s words suddenly came to mind. He had smiled, calling it a spell to hide pheromones. If so, wouldn’t the opposite also be possible?

Koi closed his eyes tightly, desperately. Please, if I can really emit pheromones, no, I can emit them. Please, come out.

Convey my feelings to Ash.

Please.

“I love you, Ash.”

It was when he whispered desperately. A strange sensation faintly touched him. Koi paused at the peculiar feeling, like his fingertips were tingling. This was new. His heart pounded, and his pulse raced. Koi’s eyes widened at the unfamiliar experience, as if his vision was brightening.

His mind, hazy like a fog, gradually cleared. Ashley raised his head at the strange feeling. The surroundings were still empty. He looked around the deserted station, then checked beside him again. Koi was looking up at him. Seeing his face, Ashley, relieved, smiled and hugged him.

It’s okay, Koi is here.

By my side.

With a deep sense of satisfaction, he slowly opened his eyes. Koi’s face, which had been in his vision, felt somewhat blurry. He blinked a few more times to focus, then unconsciously frowned at the gradually clarifying image. It was clearly Koi, but it didn’t feel like Koi. Koi’s tears, which had been welling up, fell onto his cheeks, and his vision completely brightened.

Koi is crying.

Ashley blinked blankly. Strange, why was he suddenly crying? Besides, just a moment ago, he was with Koi at the train station, but now they were in a completely different place. It was surprising that he was lying in a place that looked like a closet, with his head on Koi’s lap, but the most surprising thing was his face. Ashley was momentarily confused when he saw how much more mature he had become in such a short time. But it didn’t take long for him to realize what had happened to him.

“Ash!”

Koi cried out in alarm. But Ashley had already sprung up and moved far away from him. At his immediate reaction, full of wariness, glaring at him, Koi realized that Ashley had completely come to his senses. Tears immediately welled up in Koi’s eyes again.

“Ash, are you okay?”

Koi hastily wiped away his tears with his arm and continued, delighted.

“Thank goodness, I was worried… You’re okay now, right? You really came back, right? Huh?”

He kept asking, but Ashley didn’t answer easily. Instead, he frowned, checked his surroundings, then turned away from Koi and asked back.

“What happened? Why are you here?”

Koi’s heart ached at the sharp tone, but he tried to act normal and replied.

“Ms. Bernice told me.”

He took a deep breath and confessed honestly.

“She said you’d be here, and that you’d tell me everything now.”

He tried not to cry, but his nose stung again. Koi confessed in a trembling voice.

“I didn’t know you were still waiting for me there.”

Ashley didn’t answer. He just ran his hand through his hair with a complex expression. It was strange. Whenever he had an attack like that, his mind was always hazier and his memories jumbled, but now it wasn’t like that at all. On the contrary, he felt clearer and lighter than ever. What could have happened?

When he thought that far, he paused. A scent he hadn’t noticed belatedly alerted Ashley. A fresh yet soft scent. The scent that filled the surroundings, as if comforting him.

It was an Omega’s pheromone.

“…!”

In an instant, Ashley instinctively covered his nose and mouth. His heart pounded, and his pulse beat erratically. He braced every nerve, anticipating the nausea and pain that would soon come, but nothing happened.

Of course. The owner of this pheromone was the very person Ashley had yearned for his entire life.

Ashley slowly lowered the hand that had been covering his nose and mouth. At Ashley’s disbelieving reaction, looking at him, Koi immediately understood the situation.

“Ash.”

Koi called him, unable to hide the excitement in his trembling voice.

“Do you feel it? My pheromone? Did I do it?”

He couldn’t confirm it directly, but Ashley’s reaction was more certain than anything. But Koi, who was overjoyed, and Ashley’s expressions were the complete opposite. There was no doubt what this scent was. Ashley also admitted it was an Omega’s pheromone. But he also knew that Koi was an Omega. And that he didn’t have an attack from Koi’s scent.

However, there was something else unexpected. Ashley couldn’t believe the phenomenon that was now appearing to him. He looked down at his hands with trembling eyes. He looked up at the ceiling, then ran his hand through his hair again. But nothing changed.

He knew this sensation. The refreshing feeling he had felt the day after he first held Koi. The sensation of that day, when his mind was clearer than ever, enlightened him. At the time, he had only thought it was due to a good night’s sleep, but it wasn’t.

“Koi is an Extreme Omega.”

Ariel’s voice echoed, and Ashley soon realized. He opened his mouth, then closed it again, and finally managed to squeeze out a sound from his vocal cords. For a completely different reason than Koi, his voice trembled wildly.

“You… took my pheromones?”

At his violent shout, Koi’s face, which had been overjoyed until then, stiffened. But Ashley ignored him and yelled.

“Did you take my pheromones, you! My pheromones!”

Koi flinched at the harsh shout. Ashley was truly angry. This was the first time Koi had seen him like this, and he was flustered, but he couldn’t understand why. Koi tried to force his awkwardly downturned lips back up and spoke with difficulty.

“I don’t really know… Anyway, your condition improved, right? Then isn’t that enough? Um, my pheromone scent is definitely there, right? You believe me now, right? Huh?”

Koi asked repeatedly, but Ashley didn’t answer. Instead, Koi was suddenly scared by his terribly distorted face.

“Ash, what’s wrong?”

He forced a smile to shake off his anxiety, asking jokingly.

“There’s no problem now, right? Huh? Since my pheromones are coming out, aren’t we okay now?”

He cautiously extended his hand, but Ashley stepped back again. Ashley, whose back hit the wall and was forced to stop, glared at Koi and sneered.

“Okay?”

Ashley rasped in an unmistakably cold voice.

“Do you think I’ll be fooled by you again?”

“What?”

Koi was so flustered by the unexpected words that he could only utter that much. Ashley said coldly, as if mocking Koi.

“Anyway, you’ll abandon me again whenever you see someone more pitiful than me. It’s okay, I don’t care.”

“Ash.”

Koi called him, but Ashley’s expression didn’t change at all. With a face mixed with distrust towards Koi and self-loathing, he smiled bitterly.

So I have to be unhappy. You won’t leave me until I’m completely broken, in the most pathetic state in the world.

“Why do you keep saying that?”

Koi finally couldn’t hold back and choked up. Even seeing him like that, Ashley felt no pain in his heart. Instead, Ashley could feel a small thrill spreading through him.

Pity is fine. Compassion doesn’t matter.

“Now I’m an Omega too. I came all this way to be with you, so why don’t you believe me? What do I have to do…?”

Koi kept asking and asking. Facing him, full of tears, Ashley remembered. No matter what promises Koi made, Ashley wouldn’t believe him. Now, this was the only way left for him.

No, it was the only way.

“I wanted to get revenge on you.”

Ashley said in a quiet voice. As Koi paused, he continued.

“Because if I broke down, kind Koi would suffer. You would regret it until you died, that you ruined me like this.”

Ashley slowly smiled. At that utterly hollow smile, Koi was completely lost.

“That’s my revenge. Revenge on you for abandoning me.”

Ahahaha, a metallic laugh echoed emptily. Ashley threw his head back and laughed and laughed.

Since that day, Ashley had never removed his pheromones. He didn’t sleep with anyone, didn’t even use injections, and watched his body, his brain, break down. More happily than ever.

Ah, that was all my life was.

The laughter didn’t last long. Ashley looked up at the ceiling with blank eyes.

But you ruined my revenge.

“Ash.”

Koi called him in a fading voice. Ashley only moved his gaze to stare at Koi. He chuckled at the distorted face that was barely holding back tears.

You found out too quickly. You should have realized after I went mad and died.

How do I hold onto you now?

How can I make you suffer and regret more now?

“Bernice said, didn’t she? That my brain was strange, that I was crazy.”

“She didn’t say that…”

“She was wrong.”

Ashley said in a calm voice.

“When I first thought of revenge, I was already crazy.”

Ashley was still smiling, but Koi saw him crying. Because of that, he couldn’t shed tears. How could he cry in front of someone who couldn’t even cry? Ashley added, as if asking himself.

“I couldn’t have been sane. How could I have been normal? You abandoned me.”

If only I could.

I want to shackle your feet and make you wait for only me all day.

So you can only think of me, and can’t live without me.

If your world could be entirely filled with me, if only that could happen.

“Koi, you’re the only one in my life.”

Ashley mumbled.

“All I ever had, all I ever wanted, was you, my whole life.”

“Ash…”

“But now that’s over too.”

Ashley smiled again. Koi looked at him and couldn’t say anything. He could only watch Ashley, who seemed completely broken.

“…Foolish.”

Koi only mumbled that one word. He reached out with trembling hands, but Ashley remained still. Perhaps it was because there was nowhere left to retreat. Koi cautiously hugged him, who was silently watching. The tears he had held back streamed down his cheeks. Ashley rested his head on his chest and recalled what the doctor had said.

“It’s irreversible now. It will continue to deteriorate.”

Then will the me who loves you disappear?

Then what will I become? Can a me who doesn’t love you exist in this world?

“Back then…”

Koi whispered above his head. As if answering his question.

“I’ll remember. I’ll love you.”

Koi continued to speak. Like a spell.

“More than me, more than anything in the world, forever, I’ll remember and love you my whole life.”

Koi released his arms from around him, cupped Ashley’s cheeks with both hands, and looked into his eyes. Towards his deep violet eyes, Koi smiled faintly.

Even if you forget me, even if you no longer love me.

“The me who loves you still remains.”

Koi closed his eyes and kissed Ashley’s lips. Ashley also closed his eyes and parted his lips. His hesitant arms wrapped around Koi’s waist, then pulled him in tightly. Koi happily wrapped his arms around Ashley’s neck, deepening the kiss. They were the only two in the closet.

In the world, there were only two of them.