Kiss Me if You Can Novel Completed - Chapter 20

Josh nervously tapped the armrest with his fingers. Chase, reflected on the monitor, was thrashing on the bed as if in agony. It was clear his condition had worsened.

A groan escaped his throat. He couldn’t bear it any longer.

You idiot!

Josh cursed himself and rushed over.

“…!”

Even before opening the door, the hallway was filled with pheromones. Josh endured the dizzying sensation and readjusted his mask. It was the latest mask, said to block nearly 98 percent of pheromone scent, but damn it, the remaining 2 percent relentlessly churned his brain.

Josh tried his best to ignore the scent and opened the door. With that, the pheromones that had accumulated in the room poured out all at once.

For a moment, Josh’s mind went blank, and he stumbled back. It took him some more time to regain his composure. Entering the bedroom required courage in addition to stealing his mind.

Chase was still lying on the bed as before. But due to his frequent tossing and turning, the sheets were crumpled, and one corner was completely sticking out from under the mattress. Moreover, his shirt had buttons undone or torn off, exposing his body. It was almost impossible to tell why he was even wearing it.

“…”

Chase mumbled something and tossed again. With that, his face turned towards Josh, and he froze.

Ah.

Josh let out a sigh without realizing it. His face, sweating profusely and breathing heavily, was as beautiful as an angel, yet unpleasantly seductive.

His helpless posture, lying on the bed and looking up at him, unexpectedly aroused a sadistic urge. Josh was flustered that he felt such an emotion. He told himself it was absurd to feel this way towards anyone, let alone Chase Miller, but he couldn’t deny his feelings. Josh felt both guilty and embarrassed.

Haa, haa. Haa, haa.

Chase’s breathing sounded unusually loud. Along with the illusion of rising body temperature, Josh’s breathing also became ragged. In an instant, his front hardened and his back became wet. If Josh’s rationality had flown away just one more percent, he would probably have climbed on top of him.

But Josh desperately held back his desire. This was not the time, and he shouldn’t. He had to wake Chase somehow. He seemed to be wandering in a nightmare. As proof, through his twitching lips, ah, those damn lips.

Josh couldn’t think. He slapped his own cheek hard before he went crazy.

“Ouch, damn it!”

Josh let out a curse. Could there be another idiot like this? Josh rubbed his stinging cheek and approached the bed.

Chase was still the same. He twisted his face again and mumbled something. With each breath, the hard muscles of his chest rose and fell roughly. Josh audibly swallowed dryly.

“Mr. Miller, snap out of it. Mr. Miller.”

He carefully grabbed his shoulder and shook him gently, but he showed no sign of waking up. Extreme Alphas don’t get drunk or high easily, so he wondered how much he had taken to get like this. He had guarded other celebrities before, but he had never seen anyone so intoxicated. If ordinary people had taken this much, they would already be dead.

“Uh… uh…”

Chase mumbled something. Was he dreaming? Josh tilted his head. He hesitated, then leaned his ear closer and barely managed to understand his words.

“Don’t… stop… please…”

Josh was momentarily flustered. What did I just hear? Chase Miller saying something like this. Did I mishear?

While he was flustered, Chase continued to mumble.

“Please, I’m sorry. I was wrong. …I’ll do whatever you say, I’ll do anything. Please… please!”

It was clear. He was having a nightmare. He was definitely suffering from a terrible dream, whatever it was. But that wasn’t the end of it. Sweating profusely, Chase continued to plead.

“Forgive me, I, I was wrong. Save me, don’t do this to me. Stop, Nathaniel, Stacy… Please help me. Stop, please, no, please…!”

“Mr. Miller!”

Josh urgently called out to him. He thought he had to wake Chase quickly. Even if he were to beat him up again. That’s when it happened. Chase screamed as if in agony.

“Please, get that dog away…!”

“Chase, open your eyes!”

Josh yelled. He had to pull him out of the nightmare right now. He would do anything to do so. Just as he raised his hand, thinking of slapping his cheek, Chase’s eyes suddenly snapped open.

His normally purple eyes had turned gold. He had looked at Josh with these eyes before.

That day he got pregnant with Pete.

He poured pheromones all over my body and deeply inside me.

The moment the memory resurfaced, Josh’s insides burned, and he almost collapsed.

The next moment, the feared situation occurred. Chase suddenly got up and lunged at him.

“…!”

Unprepared for the sudden attack, Josh tumbled to the floor with Chase. Before he could get up, Chase climbed on top of him, and his mask came off. Before a sound could escape his suddenly parted lips, their mouths met.

He’s not in his right mind.

Josh knew. Chase was completely out of it right now. He will surely remember nothing tomorrow morning. Just like that day.

Then what does it matter if I just let him be?

The devil within Josh whispered. He was cramping all over, wanting to embrace this man and take him inside him right now.

If he could have sex with Chase at this moment, he would sell his soul. No, he even thought his soul was too cheap a price. Ah, if only I could do it now!

But one such experience was enough. Josh knew better than anyone what the result of succumbing to temptation once was. And with the same person, no matter how foolish he was, this was not right.

Meanwhile, Josh used all his strength to push away the hands that were pulling up his shirt and groping his body. He turned his head to avoid the lips that were coming back, pushed his shoulder with all his might, and slapped his face with his other hand.

Thwack, a dull sound echoed. He hoped this would make Chase come to his senses. Because if he didn’t stop even after this, he would have to hit him again.

“Snap out of it, Mr. Miller!”

Josh shouted with all his might. But being pinned to the floor and looking up at him, it couldn’t possibly be threatening.

He himself wasn’t confident if it would work, and sure enough, he lunged again. Ah, dangerous. He felt a siren blaring in his head, but the sound was too faint. When their lips roughly met, Josh gave up all efforts to stop him. He knew nothing. This scent was driving him crazy.

He wrapped his arms around his neck and deeply intertwined their tongues. Rough breaths were swallowed into his mouth. In a daze, Josh vaguely realized it had been a very long time since he had shared a kiss like this.

When was the last kiss?

He quickly dismissed the thought, recalling the past few years raising Pete without a single date. If, just if, this kiss with this man was his last, what did it matter?

When Chase roughly pushed up his shirt and groped his bare skin, Josh completely emptied his mind. He, too, wanted to touch the man. He wished he would come inside him and mess him up, just like before. Fill him up, pour into him.

Ah, ejaculate inside me.

Josh didn’t know if he had uttered it aloud or merely thought it. He only knew that this kiss was all that mattered right now.

Chase’s knee came between his legs, spreading his thighs wide. Josh felt his lower body becoming thoroughly wet. He repeated shallow breaths in his mouth, frantically groping his body. Chase roughly bit Josh’s lip, and a short cry escaped. It wasn’t from pain.

Chase’s erection was felt below. The rubbing movement against his fly was clear in its intention. Soon, it seemed he would tear Josh’s pants and violently thrust inside. And Josh knew that moment would come very soon.

Just as fear and anticipation of a thick penis piercing him simultaneously overwhelmed him, a memory from that day suddenly flashed through Josh’s mind, making him pause.

If Chase were to enter him again, Josh would not refuse this time, and might even shudder with the joy spreading throughout his belly. Josh already knew the consequence that would follow.

I’ll get pregnant.

Surprisingly, fear and excitement intertwined with equal intensity. Josh hesitated for a moment, then gave up everything. Could any consequence compare to the pleasure of this moment? Josh could never give it up.

He closed his eyes and pulled him closer. The kiss continued even as he encouraged Chase and rubbed his lower body.

But just as Josh shifted to take off his pants, Chase unexpectedly went quiet. Puzzled, Josh opened his eyes and pulled his lips away.

“Chase?”

When he called out cautiously, Chase dropped his head onto Josh’s shoulder. Josh lay there bewildered for a moment, catching his breath. He belatedly realized that Chase had lost consciousness again. Josh blinked in disbelief.

He got me into this state and then fell asleep by himself?

“You…!”

In frustration and anger, he unconsciously clenched his fist. He barely managed to restrain himself from genuinely hitting Chase, exercising extreme patience.

It’s good, I almost got pregnant again, didn’t I?

He tried to comfort himself by reminding himself of reality, but he still couldn’t suppress the rising anger. In the end, he controlled his strength and hit Chase’s head. Unfortunately, Chase didn’t wake up.

Josh stared blankly at Chase for a moment, dumbfounded.

“…Phew.”

With a sigh of frustration, he barely managed to get up and extricate himself from underneath. He carried Chase, who was still sprawled on the floor, from behind onto the bed, then hastily left the bedroom and headed to the bathroom connected to the monitor room to calm his aroused state.

Damn, goddamn, f*ing Chase Miller!

Frantically rubbing his lower body, he endlessly cursed the man who had absurdly fallen asleep at such a crucial moment. The problem was that just thinking of him made his aroused penis harden in his hand. That made Josh even more furious.

After finishing his habitual, mechanical masturbation, he quickly wiped his face, arms, and other exposed areas at the sink to wash off the pheromones, and only then did his rationality somewhat return.

He sat down, feeling hollow, but there was still something left to do. Deleting the records. Josh rewound time and erased the part that filmed the bedroom.

No one would know there was a blank space. Unless there was a special incident, they would never review the records.

He watched until dawn, but fortunately, Chase didn’t seem to be having nightmares anymore. As proof, he didn’t toss or turn or talk in his sleep afterward. Watching him, Josh felt only bitterness.

What on earth is going on?

He himself, who had been swept away again, was the biggest problem. Even though he knew that man was like that.

It’s all because of the pheromones, he dismissed it. Josh also knew that wasn’t all of it. But even if he genuinely wanted him, what else could he do? This relationship had no hope. To that man, Josh was nothing.

He sighed deeply again and rubbed his tired eyes, when the sun began to rise in the distance. It was a couple of hours later that Josh requested a vacation from Mark.