Eighteen’s Bed Novel Completed - Chapter 34

What is this bastard, what is he saying?

The half-chewed French fry felt strangely slow as it went down my esophagus. The food scraped my throat as it descended. My mouth went dry. Black pupils pressed down on me.

“Noisy.”

But the moment a low voice was heard, I felt the hot pressure that had filled my eyes subside. The churning emotions instantly became peaceful. I turned my head blankly. It was Go Yohan. Go Yohan, sitting with his back to the light, swaggered with a straw in his mouth. Then he leaned his waist diagonally and spoke to the guy sitting in front of him, as if scolding him.

“Hey. Don’t you smell bad?”

His intention was to humiliate him in a vulgar way anyway. Seeing him chuckle, covering his mouth with a finger, after leaving the troubled guy in front behind… But his eyes were dead. His slightly lighter-colored pupils just glared at the opposite side, as if to kill.

“What kind of trash did he eat…”

“You bastard, how childish.”

“Ah, ah, yeah. Of course.”

Go Yohan nodded indifferently.

“That’s right. I’m childish.”

And suddenly, he lightly tapped his canine tooth with his index fingernail. To tap his tooth, he had to open his mouth, and that shape was exactly like a sneering face.

“So I want to say anything. Because my mouth is a bit loose and childish, you see.”

At that moment, Go Yohan’s true intention became clear. I involuntarily let out a faint laugh. That was the humiliation I knew Han Junwoo had. Threatening Han Junwoo with his extracted teeth. Remembering that ridiculous sight, my fear vanished.

And the owner of that shame was biting his lip tightly. Serves him right. I was steeped in refreshing pleasure. My heart, which had been clogged with frustration, felt completely open.

“People see what they want to see, dragging others down like a water ghost. I want to know too. How many men did you see as nothing but a backdoor for you to see everything as gay?”

“Shut your mouth before I smash your face.”

“And you don’t seem to know.”

It felt strangely familiar. Like I’d heard it somewhere before.

“Jun and I were originally close. You bastard.”

And with a clicking sound of his tongue, he poked his cheek with his finger, as if trying to be cute. But I knew that action was a threat. Because it was a secret between me and Go Yohan. I desperately suppressed the laugh that was about to escape.

Ah. This is driving me crazy. Han Junwoo stared at Go Yohan with a resentful face, then shut his mouth. He probably didn’t want to let his pride know that those two teeth had been pulled out by Go Yohan.

“…”

The atmosphere in our class remained quiet until the homeroom teacher returned. Only Go Yohan’s humming flowed. He was the only one relaxed. He continued to swagger and eat his hamburger, but even a quick glance at Go Yohan’s face didn’t look particularly triumphant.

Go Yohan helped me. That was a clear fact. I still didn’t know why Go Yohan had been angry with me, but I decided to apologize first anyway. It was payment for his help.

“But I’m not very good at apologizing…”

I hesitated, wondering how to apologize casually, and just wasted time. The decision was definitely made when I accidentally passed the school store and found a basket of candies. I chose one and bought it. I fiddled with the candy for a long time as I headed to the classroom.

Then I ran into Go Yohan. He was standing quietly in the hallway, arms crossed, staring at the end of the hallway. I stood behind him and tried to find what Go Yohan was so intently looking at.

A normal curiosity arose. What was he looking at? I naturally followed his gaze. At the end of it, I saw a broken emergency exit sign. What? Is that all he’s looking at? A bewildered, hollow laugh escaped me.

“What is he looking at that for? He’s really peculiar.”

After my hollow laugh, I stared intently at his large back. My mind snapped back to attention as noisy conversations approached from a distance. Ah, why do I keep doing this? I shook my head, muffled my footsteps, approached him, and subtly slipped a lime-flavored candy into his pocket, saying in a very small voice.

“Thank you.”

So embarrassing. But that embarrassment wasn’t entirely unpleasant. Just awkward and shy. I couldn’t overcome that shyness, so I quickly turned around and tried to go into the classroom. Until Go Yohan grabbed my shoulder.

“What did you just say?”

My body was forcibly turned around. It was a bit uncomfortable, so I scrunched up my face, and he, on the contrary, frowned one eyebrow and asked.

“Nothing.”

I tried to turn my body again and escape. I tried to escape, but Go Yohan grabbed my wrist this time, so I couldn’t get away.

“It’s not nothing, say it again, what was it? What you said earlier.”

“Forget it.”

“What is it, tell me.”

“What? You heard it all, didn’t you?”

I pulled my hand away and lightly hit Go Yohan’s back with my palm. Very lightly. And then I quickly left the spot.

A good thing is a good thing, but when I turn around and see Han Junwoo’s face again, my mood plummets to the floor. Han Junwoo was leaning back in his chair, looking forward, and I looked at his gaze with disdain.

Following his gaze, it landed on Han Taesan’s back. That idiot. Han Taesan had been slumped over his desk all day today. Let those two dig their own graves forever. I was utterly fed up, so I shook my head once and sat down to prepare for the next class.

Even when class started, my concentration still broke sometimes. It was because of Han Junwoo, who had no textbook. The teacher pointed out Han Junwoo’s lack of a textbook, and unwillingly, my gaze kept going to Han Junwoo. What was I supposed to do when he kept disrupting class?

Annoyance increasingly grated on my nerves. I couldn’t understand why I had to listen to nagging about Han Junwoo during study time. I didn’t even want to concentrate, so I took out a sticky note from my pencil case and wrote down a math formula I needed to memorize. As I gathered my scattered concentration, this time the teacher shouted loudly.

“Hey, you! Han Junwoo!”

Startled. I looked up in shock and saw the teacher and Han Junwoo again. Han Junwoo must have been sarcastic again. I shuddered at his patheticness. Muttering curses under my breath, I scratched my pen on the sticky note. As I wrote something and thought, I unconsciously wrote down my true feelings.

<Han Junwoo J>

I f*cking hate Han Junwoo. I stopped writing in surprise and quickly lifted my pen.

Just seeing this name makes me sick. Now only malice remains. He’s trash who only interferes with my life. My past of associating with such a guy felt like a waste.

My mind turned gray. A fog descended. Due to the surging irritation, my mind, on the contrary, plunged into unconsciousness. As my vision cleared, a name appeared in my blurring and brightening sight.

<Go Yohan>

It was a name my hand had written on its own, without me realizing it. My heart suddenly dropped with a heavy thud, startling me. My mind turned red. I hurriedly used a black pen to desperately hide only Go Yohan’s name, lest someone see it.

And I crumpled the paper tightly with my hand and threw it into the distant paper waste bin. I threw it far away and looked around, when suddenly my eyes met Go Yohan’s. Go Yohan’s cool eyes swept over me. Like someone suspicious.

“…”

My face grew hot, wondering if he had perhaps seen what I did. I quickly straightened my posture and clenched my fists tightly. I desperately resisted. I didn’t even want to think about what I was resisting. Rather, I was afraid that thinking about it would mean admitting the truth. I clenched my fists tightly.

No. Absolutely not.

No. Absolutely not.