Eighteen’s Bed Novel Completed - Chapter 152

It was an abrupt question. Even though I thought so. Go Yohan must have thought the same. Go Yohan, who had been scratching the blanket for no reason, closed his mouth. But I was strangely anxious. As if to rush him, I asked again.

“Did you hate him from the first time you saw him?”

“Who likes a bastard like that? I hated him enough to want to kill him from the first time I saw him.”

“Why?”

“Is that any of your business?”

My tightly clenched fist pressed into the bed. I watched Go Yohan, who was glaring into the air as if suppressing his anger, then my gaze shifted to his ear. Go Yohan’s ear, visible through his messy hair, was bright red. I raised my hand. I desperately wanted to touch his weak earlobe, which was full of holes. As if possessed, I pulled my body forward, slowly extended my arm, and lightly touched it. At the same time, Go Yohan pulled his body back and looked at me with startled eyes.

A cold sensation lingered on my hand. I smiled with satisfaction.

“Why, why?”

Looking at Go Yohan, who was asking in a flustered tone, I opened my mouth after a slight hesitation.

“Yohan ah, do you want to know why I pulled Han Junwoo’s back?”

“…”

Go Yohan didn’t answer, but his eyes, filled with confusion and doubt, didn’t lie. I lowered my hand and curved my lips upwards. I swallowed hard as my throat stung every time I spoke. My body was aching all over. Yet, I didn’t stop talking.

My breath was swallowed once, and a fleeting moment, akin to an eternity, passed. My mouth opened.

“Actually, I already liked you back then.”

Confusion mingled with the doubt and bewilderment in his eyes. Of course, I truly liked Go Yohan after that, but for Go Yohan, who liked lies, I thought this much of a lie was charming.

“I wanted you to win over Han Junwoo.”

However, Go Yohan seemed to disbelieve all my words.

“Lie.”

“…It’s true.”

“Don’t lie.”

“Why do you think it’s a lie?”

“It doesn’t make sense!”

Go Yohan shouted, his face confused. At the same time, his small pupils moved uneasily.

“You like me, that doesn’t make sense.”

“Why doesn’t it make sense?”

It was absurd. Was I that good at hiding my emotions? Rather, by my standards, I thought it was a miracle I hadn’t been caught. And we’d even had sex. No, did he think I’d have sex with someone I didn’t even like? I was flustered too.

“…”

“…Why do you think it doesn’t make sense?”

“You, you…”

Despair came over Go Yohan’s face as he struggled to roll his eyes, trying to find an excuse for why he didn’t like himself. He wanted to say something, but he couldn’t think of anything, and it didn’t make sense. So he didn’t know either. I said, feeling absurd.

“Why, when I went to your house, did I do such a foolish thing?”

“That’s because you looked down on me…”

“Why would I look down on you? What would I gain from that?”

Go Yohan’s pupils trembled wildly. “Ah, uh, that, that.” His small, trembling words couldn’t form a sentence and scattered into the air. Ah, this is why people do ugly things. This is why. I understand why I hated seeing fools drunk on love. It was because I was that kind of fool. How I didn’t want to let go of this foolish Go Yohan.

Go Yohan’s eyelids turned red. At the same time, my emotions were heightened.

“You idiot, it was all because I liked you.”

My love always begins with sacrifice. That was inherently my way.

Ah, it’s all over now. The eighteen-year-old illness I vowed never to have ended meaninglessly. Nothing changed after I spoke. The world didn’t collapse, and my head didn’t explode.

Only one thing changed. Go Yohan’s face. His face, gradually blossoming, held doubt and an inexpressible joy of hope. That scent was directed only at me. Intoxicated by the flower that bloomed only for me, I put an end to it once more. Well, what’s done is done. This much isn’t difficult.

“I swear on your religion.”

In the end, it meant putting myself on the line.

“Kang Jun has actually liked Go Yohan since he was eighteen.”

And I, who did this because I didn’t want to see Go Yohan’s tears, had to see Go Yohan’s tears again, as usual. Transparent drops fell from his bloodshot eyes.

“Yo-Yohan ah.”

I didn’t know what to do. Just as I reached out to wipe his tears in a hurry, I was pushed back by a strong force and fell backward.

“Ah, ow…”

I grimaced at the agonizing feeling of my bottom falling out. Why is he suddenly like this? I groaned and looked up. And then I froze. Go Yohan was crying. The area around his narrow eyes was red. His trembling hand, clearly felt on my skin, traced and stroked my face, examining every feature. And the way he was smiling honestly turned me on. But I didn’t have the stamina to endure it. I willingly smiled pleasantly and raised my hand.

“Now, move aside a little.”

As I pushed Go Yohan, who was subtly leaning his weight on me, I felt something hot and hard growing between my buttocks. No way, the feeling of lust instantly vanished.

“Ju-Just a moment. Go Yohan. No way you… Ugh.”

I couldn’t continue my words. His clumsy lips had found mine again. But he only lightly touched his lips to mine, doing nothing else. Instead, he smiled more and more, laughing softly. His lips, when they touched, tickled. Unlike before, his attitude was sacred, like someone making a vow.

“Jun-ah.”

Go Yohan, sacred? That’s absurd.

“Jun-ah.”

“No…”

Why is he calling my name and then opening the gap I had desperately closed again? Even if I tried to push him away with trembling hands, he wouldn’t budge. Wait, why, why, I writhed, uttering words that couldn’t form sentences. When I tried to speak, Go Yohan tilted his head and kissed my lips. He pressed them lightly. A wet sound was heard every time they separated. Soon, his penis, which felt thicker than before, pushed into the loosened opening. In that bewilderment, I could only twist my waist and freeze.

“…Eut. Hey!”

Go Yohan’s whisper, heard with his lips still pressed against mine, came into my throat.

“It’s okay. Even if what you said was a lie, it’s okay.”

Even when I tried to close my mouth, Go Yohan grabbed my chin and opened it. My resistance was thus blocked. Ah, ahh… A suppressed moan, pushed to its limit, erupted. Below, I felt a more relaxed sensation than before, entering me. Now, no amount of struggle was useful. Tears burst out as I felt him already more than halfway deep inside.

Ah, this bastard.

“Jun-ah. Why did you confess like that to a religious fanatic, of all people?”

My inner wall, heated by friction, moved smoothly. The subtle, pulsing movements that pushed through my flesh and vibrated with my heartbeat transmitted through all my nerves. In the tightly filled space, Go Yohan’s penis moved gently. My hand, outstretched to stop Go Yohan, was instantly caught and pressed onto the bed. His firm hips, pressed tightly against my bottom, moved gently, and I bit my lip at the renewed, death-like sensation.

Finally, Go Yohan, who was pressing me down, laughed.

“A vow means that words that end from your mouth must begin from your mouth. That’s why it’s a vow.”

“…”

“So thank you, Jun-ah. For your promise that you will continue to keep.”

As brightly as that clear smile I had glimpsed once. You, eighteen, who bloomed in the most desperate and chaotic period of my life, thus took root in my life. I grabbed my waist tightly, pulled out, then lost my mind as I felt him thrusting back in, his tip still caught, and suddenly realized.

I had truly lost my way out now.

But grabbing the messy sheets tightly, I continued to think. Honestly, instead of being terrible, hadn’t I gained such a good hand in Go Yohan? I took a deep breath and embraced the heat that filled me. I raised my heavy hand and carefully stroked Go Yohan’s arm. His smooth skin was brushed breathtakingly, and the tickle at my fingertips heightened my arousal. Go Yohan also stopped abruptly.

“…”

“…Yo, Yohan ah.”

I painfully opened my mouth, which was blocked by the heavy, wet sensation. Just silently, with my mouth.

‘Okay. I will.’

That was the end. Go Yohan, who read my lips, stopped blankly, just staring foolishly, showing no movement. I struggled to twist my tightly gripped waist, then sighed deeply and moved my hips up and down myself.

“Eut…”

I closed my eyes and propped myself up with my arms on the bed. Every time I forcibly pushed and pulled Go Yohan’s penis, a squelching sound grew louder from below.

“Aahh…”

The moment I moaned alone, Go Yohan, who had been silent, suddenly put all his strength into the hand gripping my waist. Uh, before I could even process the situation, my body, which had been swaying alone on the sheet, was instantly pulled down. I distinctly felt the blanket sliding down my back and accepted what was about to happen. Inside me, it was deeply, suffocatingly filled. Ah, it would hurt, as expected.

But isn’t there always a price for everything in life?

My price is Go Yohan. That was enough value.