Define The Relationship Novel - Chapter 41

He wanted to hold Ash’s hand. Karlyle fumbled with his fingers, rubbing the back of Ash’s hand. Ash, who was moving his hips widely and thrusting inside, looked up and saw it. Ash, who had been quietly gazing at his hand, then slowly intertwined their palms. Their palms met. Karlyle’s upper body trembled. The feeling was so, so good.

So, so good that…

“Are you going to cum again?”

Ash lowered his head and pressed his face against Karlyle’s. Karlyle squeezed his eyes shut, then opened them again. Just as Ash said, he felt like he was going to come again.

The problem was that this orgasm wasn’t accompanied by ejaculation. He had never heard of such a case. This was the third time.

Ash acutely noticed his peculiar climax. Ash called it “coming” when his opening contracted and convulsed as if to bite off his cock. But, why, exactly…

“Ah, hngh, ungh, ugh, slow, slowly, ah, hah!”

As if not to give him time to think, Ash sped up. Karlyle panted, clenching his toes tightly. The end was coming.

“Ugh, hah, ah, ahh, ah!”

Finally, at the moment Ash deeply pierced the spot Karlyle was feeling, climax arrived. His curled toes stiffened, and his body trembled.

“I’ve truly never seen anyone feel it this well.”

Ash said in a dangerously seductive voice. Karlyle shook his head. His entire body became sensitive from the climax he experienced without ejaculating.

His stiff erection showed no sign of subsiding, only turning redder. Ash didn’t stop. Even at the most sensitive moment, he thrust hard inside.

“With a body like this…”

Thwack, he was pounded hard again. The sound of flesh slapping loudly echoed across the bed. Something was strange. The feeling of coming wouldn’t stop.

Karlyle panted and kicked the sheets. He pushed the sheets with the soles of his feet, trying to get away from Ash.

“Ash, wait, wait, hah, ah, haa, strange, strange…”

“Anyone would go crazy.”

His lower abdomen clenched tightly. He felt the urge to urinate. His body was acting strangely. Fear washed over him. He had to stop.

“Ash, please, just a moment… ah, hah, a strange feeling…”

His stiff cock began to tremble. He felt like he was going to make a mess. He thought he should stop for a moment and leave. If he continued like this, he might make a terrible display, incomparable to before.

“Stop, please, hmph, ah, ah!”

“Not me.”

“Stop, stop, st-stop…”

A soft, low voice settled in his ear. Karlyle clenched his palms, trying to pull his cock out. But Ash quickly caught up to him. Pleasure surged wildly, churning his brain, then descended to his belly, becoming the urge to urinate.

He reached his limit. Karlyle panted, feeling like he was about to expel something. His eyes contorted. Please, stop…

“Other alphas would like it too.”

With a sensation as if his throat was being pierced, Ash’s cock plunged in very deep. Ash pressed his body against Karlyle’s, shoving his cock into Karlyle until it reached its limit. Climax arrived for both of them.

Karlyle’s mouth opened silently. Along with the feeling of his body breaking, an incomparably intense sensation of orgasm, unlike before, overwhelmed Karlyle. His entire body stiffened.

Semen dripped from his cock. A white, pungent fluid first flowed over his navel. Following the semen that pooled and flowed, something else slowly burst forth. Ash’s ragged breath touched his neck.

With the sound of flowing water, a transparent liquid began to flow from his urethral opening. The fluid trickled and pooled on his stomach, which was tense and hard. His head throbbed. He couldn’t believe what he had just done.

Urinated.

Shock hit his head. It felt like his breath was being squeezed. He felt dizzy. His eyes were dry. Karlyle lowered his gaze.

His neck flushed, and an unspeakable shame washed over him. That wasn’t the end. Ash’s words, heard just before he ejaculated, buzzed in his head. They spread like vibrations.

‘Other alphas…’

The words ‘other alphas’…

His eyes stung. As strength drained from his entire body, emotions too complex to define surged up. Shame at having made such a disgraceful display, humiliation stemming from the fact that he had shown it to Ash of all people, and something hot, like a clot of blood, welled up inside him because of Ash’s mention of other alphas.

Barely steadying his weakening body, Karlyle released Ash’s hand. The stinging sensation around his eyes intensified, and then moisture welled up. Karlyle truly put force into pushing Ash away and extricated himself from him. He swallowed his panting breaths and got off the bed.

“Karlyle?”

Ash called out to him, puzzled, and sat up. His eyes hurt. With reddened eyes, Karlyle said softly, without looking back at Ash,

“…I think I should go now.”

“What do you mean?”

Karlyle closed his mouth. Something welled up in his reddened eyes. At the sensation of hot liquid forming in his eyes, Karlyle quickened his pace. The liquid that had pooled on his upper body flowed down his thighs to his calves.

Karlyle tried to compose himself, his body trembling slightly at the embarrassing traces flowing down to his ankles. But Ash grabbed Karlyle, who was about to leave the room. His arm was caught.

“Karlyle, are you okay?”

He wasn’t okay. He had shown a terrible side of himself to the person he liked. In addition to making a mistake that even a child wouldn’t… Ash kept…

“Please let me go.”

Karlyle flung his arm away with those words. He gritted his teeth and stubbornly turned away, walking out. He didn’t have the confidence to look at Ash’s face. He didn’t want to see it. He couldn’t bear how ridiculous Ash would find him after seeing him in such a state.

No, Ash probably wouldn’t even care in the first place. Sadness washed over him. He was angry and sad. He hated himself for not being able to control his emotions.

“Karlyle, look at me.”

But Ash didn’t let him go. This time, his shoulder was caught. Ash quickly walked in front of him. Karlyle pressed his lips together and turned his head. Ash, who had come in front of him, looked at his face, then his eyes widened.

“…Karlyle, are you… crying right now?”

With a very surprised expression, Ash reached out his hand. Karlyle turned his head in another direction as if to swat it away. A softly extended hand gripped Karlyle’s cheek, slowly turning him to face Ash.

Ash’s face, which had been languidly wet, changed to its usual gentle and soft expression, then became one of utter bewilderment. With a very flustered face, Ash rubbed his cheek.

“Karlyle, huh? Please look at me. Okay?”

Ash pleaded with him in a tender voice. Karlyle slowly composed his breathing and quietly turned his eyes. The intense urge to leave right then subsided slightly at Ash’s voice calling him.

“I was wrong.”

Ash apologized first. Gently rubbing Karlyle’s cheek, which was still, Ash furrowed his brows. The tears that had welled up to their limit finally flowed down his cheeks. Only then did Karlyle realize that he was crying.

It had been an incredibly long time since he had cried. Since he started walking and talking on his own, Karlyle had never cried in any situation.

Even as a boy, when he broke a bone learning to ride, he didn’t shed a single tear. It was the same when he was young, wanting to show a mature side to his parents, so there was no way he would remember crying after becoming an adult.

From why he was crying when he had done nothing good, to the thought of showing such a shameful display in front of Ash, everything felt futile. He had shown his dirty side to someone he should have looked good for, and even shown his unkempt, crying face.

It was understandable why Ash kept talking about other alphas. No, it wasn’t understandable.

Why did Ash keep talking about other alphas? He thought something had changed, improved, compared to before. He kept seeing hope, even while thinking it might be a delusion.

But it was a delusion after all. Ash only thought of him as someone he wouldn’t see again soon.

“…I’ve shown you a terrible sight. Please let me go.”

Unable to swat Ash’s hand away as he had before, Karlyle quietly pleaded with a softened demeanor. He wanted to borrow the bathroom, wash up, and go home as soon as possible. His own excitement at the thought of seeing Ash again felt pathetic.

“I didn’t know you’d dislike it so much. I’m sorry.”

Ash didn’t let him go, speaking politely in a regretful voice. Karlyle lowered his gaze. He focused his eyes on Ash’s well-formed feet and ankles, composing his breath. Complex emotions spread through him. While showing such a side was a big reason, the truth was, more than that…

“I was wrong, Karlyle. Will you forgive me?”

Ash said that, gently stroking Karlyle’s arm. His lips softly touched Karlyle’s forehead as he stood there.

The warmth spreading on his forehead, the tender voice, and Ash’s truly apologetic face slowly calmed the burning sensation inside him. Instead, a strange lump rose in his throat.

“…Why, do you keep…”

Even though he thought he shouldn’t speak, the question that had welled up to his throat finally came out. He felt sad.

“Other… alphas…”

Karlyle whispered lowly, his voice hoarse and broken. Ash leaned in to listen to the small, breath-like sound.

“I don’t know why you mention… other alphas.”

He was truly upset. Karlyle also wanted to ask if he was such an insignificant being. Ash blinked at his words. Karlyle, having said that much, pulled away from Ash.

He couldn’t handle himself, as if his mental age had regressed, blurting out unnecessary inner thoughts. There would never be another day when he showed such a messy side. Tiredness washed over him. Ash followed Karlyle into the bathroom. Ash gently hugged his waist from behind and said,

“Karlyle, just listen to me for a moment.”

“…I want to wash up.”

“Did you dislike me mentioning other alphas?”

Karlyle paused. Ash turned Karlyle’s body and met his eyes. Karlyle lowered his gaze, avoiding eye contact.

“…”

He knew that he had been showing cracks in front of Ash at some point. It was difficult for Karlyle himself to control everything, and a faint desire not to do so surged from a corner of his heart.